I could tell Miss M was nervous when she walked in the door. I could also see how absolutely gorgeous she was and just hoped she saw it too before she left for the day. We talked about mean boys and horrible dates during hair and makeup. The shoot happened and I knew she was nailing the shots. Once we went through her photos I could finally see her “ah-ha” moment and it gave me all the feels. She thanked me and hugged me. Pretty sure she almost cried happy tears. I told her she’d meet someone amazing soon and guess what?! She’s already dating someone she really likes. I see them together on the ‘gram all the time. Read her story below.

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“30 is the comeback year.”

Why did you do a boudoir shoot? “This time last year I thought I was getting married. I was the happiest I had ever been in life and I thought everything was perfect. All of that came to a terrible end and I was left picking up the pieces. I allowed someone else to have control of my happiness and mental health. I spent the last year pulling myself out of a really dark place. Taking care of yourself when you're a mom is usually last on the list. I set a goal to change that and to start working on myself. I wanted to document what my 30th year has really meant to me. 30 is the comeback year. I finally feel confident in who I am as a woman. I know what I am looking for in life, and that nothing is ever worth my mental health. I don't know what the rest of life holds for me, but I want to always remember 30 and know that I can get through whatever comes my way. I wanted these photos as a reminder of what a strong badass mom and woman I've become.”

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Why did you choose Indium Boudoir? “I love the natural colors of their studio and that none of the photos look forced. They capture each persons true beauty and grace without trying too hard! I love the girl power message they always convey, giving confidence to women of all shapes sizes and ages.”

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“I was so happy with myself!!!”

Has anything changed for you since your boudoir session? “Seeing myself at the photo review was almost shocking. It’s easy to forget how beautiful you are, especially when you're a mom or have been in a relationship that made you feel otherwise. I went into this thinking I was going to need an embarrassing amount of Photoshop. I was thinking that I don't look like a "model" and that I didn't have an ideal body shape and that I should have been going to the gym.

And I was surprised to see that was not the case (AT ALL!!) I was so happy with myself!!! This really taught me not to compare myself to others and to practice self love. I was letting society make me feel like I was less than if I didn't look a certain way. I was letting that effect me more than I ever knew. This realization was such a huge moment for me and I can’t thank you enough for pulling me out of my comfort zone to see that. I've been beaming with confidence and positivity this last week. This experience was huge mile marker in the work I have been putting in with knowing my true worth and finally putting some things in the past. I let this last year hold me back from dating again, and I have a date this weekend. (You were right!!) Thank you for giving me the push I needed to get back out there.”

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“Traci, you were so awesome and instructive.”

Anything you wish we would have done differently? “I wish I wouldn't have been so nervous going into it. Now that I have done it, I wish I would have had more confidence walking in the door instead of only on the way out. I think that held me back from taking even better photos. Traci, you were so awesome and instructive. I think between my nerves and trying to listen to make sure I was doing it right, I was thinking too much. The anticipation and wanting them to be perfect was high for me and I wish I would have not taken myself so seriously and loosened up a bit! (Life lesson right there!) I cant wait to do this again someday and walk into it knowing better.”

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